This is the day where i'm at home watching series and never hang out with my beloved.
Yesterday went to Matsuba and had dinner to celebrate my friend's birthday. It was kinda bored.Is not kinda is very bored. I don't is i'm too tired or no communication with them. They were just talking among themselves. Izit really my problem?or they don't have communication with me? or problem with age gap? or i'm not part of their friend?or............there are plenty "or",plenty of "why" question.
Yeah,maybe i'm not the one that they are expected. I'll prefer in a youthful group and not in the glowing group. Saying bye to the GLOWING group. Neh....never able to fit it. This thing will never change,if is my problem ,i've tried my best but still??turn out like that.

Have a ever went to a dinner and just sit down there and say less than 20 words?Do you have a friend only talk with you four words a day??FOUR WORDS!!!! RIDICULOUS!!!!! Women"s heart is just very soft and hurt especially the whole group of people thought that you are transperant . This night was the scary night that Melissa Hew Pui Ling say so little words Is that really me? People change or i'm the one who already change?My six sense told me that i'll never be friends with them because i'm not qualified. My grades not good enough to be their friends. Anyway,never think too much anymore.

Suddenly my mind just came across that, "NOTHING IS MORE CRUEL TO A WOMAN THAN TO BE BETRAYED/ACCUSED BY YOUR FRIENDS".

"Crucified lay behind the stone,
You live to die,
Rejected and alone,
Like a rose,
Tremble on the ground,
You took the fall,
And you've thought of me,
Above All"

This song's name called Above All.Is one of my favourite song,its remind me that Jesus die on the cross to pay the price for our sin. How great that there's a God where sacrifices His life to washed our sin and the suffering that He paid.It was so worthy of him that,He wants us to worship him and accept Him as our Lord and Saviour. Friends out there which do not know God yet,this is the God where can help you go thru' your difficulty and bless you with many things in your life.

I'm very glad that i knew God as Lord and Saviour.He will help me to go through every step of my life.The decision that i've made and the ministry that i've serve in the church. I believe that he has a perfect plan for my life and have a great future ahead.That's why i always trust Him that he'll by my side to encourage me.Although,sometimes i may complain why God out me in this situation and asking plenty question on why's question.But i i believe that God is in control in everything and never let me go.

To all my friends out there,believe in Him.Believe him that he'll done great things in your life. Today in cell, i've learn that empty your heart,let God feel your heart with happiness,grace and excitement towards Him.And the great thing is He'll done miracles in your life. God bless!

What's the relationship that really matters us?
Why humans tent to be emo easily?
Is that really matter?
I really have no idea.
Emptiness,loneliness,bitterness...etc... Is that really affecting us?
Yeah,i can confirm that sometimes i do have this kind of feeling,but after awhile it will be alright.The impression people tent to think that,
you are alright and with no worries,
actually is not like that,the heart is full of sadness and bitterness
that people don't really want to border.
They just stick with their own group and chat and don't care how people feels.
That's why they don't grow!anyway.........
Never mind,is a normal issue to me.No friends,no love,no caring no etc..
Its use to disturb me a lot but now,is doesn't matter anymore.
What i've care is as long i do my part.love people,care about people,friends happy then i'll be happy for them and its my duty as a friend.
I hope i've done the best and try to make my friend feel comfortable and all that.

Why relationship so difficult to solve?
In our life, we'll face those problem with family members,relatives, boyfriend,close friends(use to have,now?i also cant predict),what else?
Yeah,its kinda challenging till no strength or don't want to border it anymore.
Btw, MISUNDERSTANDING may affect every relationship if really don't want to care about it.but to me cure or not curing also not a problem anymore cuz no use in a relationship with no trustworthy among us. So, don't care!

Another day gone.Time passes really really fast. This morning i went back to my formal school and take my SPM certificate.
I'm not glad at all to go back to that school,i prefer to have freedom as in dress code,highlighted hair and so on. SMKB really change a lot and they start to build new
buildings. That was so unfair. We formal students contributed a lot to build that stupid building and we didn't get to use it.Especially, that dusty and hot dewan. We only get
to use ONE TIME that is during our graduation day. Really....speechless...dunno what to say anymore.

guess what???somehow,we miss out school canteen's food.We have our brunch there
and not bad the food there.(think back those days we were there eating).
Even tough,i dont like now the secondary school with so many rules
and regulations but i really enjoy may secondary school life with no
regrets. This is what i'm glad of.

College life may not enjoy(as in really enjoy) too much,although the time kinda flexible but a lot studies,presentation,assignment need
to catch up. NO LAST MINUTE REVISION!!never....never.....haha...

Today have my HR lecture. No regret going for that lecture because she's really funny and try to make us write and write and write really much.
She say that coming to lecture not to sit down and watch movie at cinema its
study so whatever she thought us must write down on the notes or
when she'd giving short notes,we must write a lot.Guess what?This is one of the rules and regulation.haha....sadly is when she asked something,nobody will respond,
she will start to repeat the question over and over again till
we answer her.hahaha...that's was so funny.
Not bad lecturer.Really enjoy her teaching but somehow kinda confuse.
Need do work it on,seven weeks is really fast only.GAMBATEH!